nian's bday celebration

as usual, I was late.haha.so is leeting.today is not nian's bday but we r only celebrating today.whee.=) original itinery: wanted to go tanning at cafe del mar.but.we ate at sakae for lunch since cafe del mar's food was super ex and not v worth it to eat lunch there.and then, no sun was up.argh...irritating.we didnt really manage to tan but juz chill there lah.some guy said: "hello ladies,care to join us for fribee? or are u too busy with tanning.n of coz, we refused coz we r afraid of flying objects and would rather tan.even though there is like no sun.lol.super funny la.i miss u girls so much.hiaz.things havent been going fine for me lately.=( tanning session next week.i hope.i really really wana treasure wad i have now.hiaz.i feel so lonely.so superficial.so wadeva.damnit.

dunno y but i felt like super sad when i got home. maybe coz its the withdrawal symptoms frm parting with my girls.i juz wanted to talk to someone.so i told my mum about it.but she totally misunderstood and i was juz so disappointed tt i juz broke down.this sucks.i tink ive been bottling up all my unhappiness for a week, and everything juz burst.but.after crying for like an hour or so, i have no tears left.actually, i felt so much better la.like let everything out.lol.n i think im overreacting.or maybe im too sensitive.i think im really v emotionally unstable recently.always have ups and downs.lol.n after talking to a particular person, ive decided tt im being quite rubbish la.juz hafta wait and see lor.juz try my best to make myself happy.if its really liddat, den forget it la.its just two weeks. wads more impt is to focus on studies now.dun let tis kinda stuff affect me.argh. Ale Koh please cheer up....

dragonboat training

jieru gave me both her anatomy practical and theory books! yay.i feel so luccky.haha.coz shes not charging me for them but the other seniors are charging.plus her books r like brand new.muz be she nv study n take notes.the books are freaking thick.i bet i wont really use them tt much.i think anatomy is gonna be hard sia.hiaz.but physio definitely the most sucky.coz lecturer isnt gd.grrrh..=(

went for dragonboat training with nurse in the evening.together wif nadia frm physio as well.we r like the only 3 PT/OT ppl.lols.feel abit old.anw,trg was quite ok la.run like duno how many rounds for 30min.but i dont feel breatheless or tired.so i guess it isnt much.the only thing was my blister.damn.=( lucky it didnt burst.nw my thighs r aching.trg ytr.trg 2day,trg tmr.omg.tis is killing me.db seems really fun la but i mite nt have da time.duno if nurse will join.nurse will prob beat the rest la.shes future captain sia.=( anw, they made us do tis funny intro thingy.stand in 2 lines n shake hands n introduce urself to another person.and theres like 100 ppl in db at least.and its non-stop.felt really weird la.i feel like some celebrity giving autographs or smtg.super funny.nurse still down there socializing.den slow down the whole queue.haha.my blister quite pain.so decided to cab home.yayness to cabs.haha.

ok.i gotta go study le.i duno whether i shd join db since i alrdy train 3 times a week.unless cut down on trg for boxing la.trg frm mon to fri is like siao.dun nd study liao.and with the crazy stuff to memorize, i tink i better think carefully.dang dang dang.

classouting!

had claz outing at vivocity rooftop.lols.almost the whole class went.=))) yayness.supposed to go ECP.but it rained.plus its like so damn far.so went vivocity rooftop have picnic instead.lol.play alot of dumb games n ate alot of rubbish.quite glad tt the claz got to know each other better. like we dont just stick to the same cliques but also talk n communicate with da rest of the claz.hope the entire claz can hav a great time together the nxt 3 yrs.really hope no politics or wadsoeva arises.ok.im a pessimist.haha.hope we can bond well too.yay!.OT2 rawks.=)

had SAOT orientation in school today.quite fun la.haha.i was late for like 20min though.haha.saw chuwen frm zhss and surprisingly frm mj as well.wad a coincidence.got books frm seniors so i need not spend 100 bucks for my txtbks.=) yea man. anyways, thanks but no thanks to haitun for talking about me.i do not entertain u can.u entertain urself.ha.but ok la.i appreciate u la.my one and only bee tan.
and to my girls, im sorry that i nv join u all for clubbing today.its juz tt i li dont feel like clubbing right now la and plus im having some problems with my mum.argh.maybe in june la.sorry sorry.=(

took this pic of Hafiz after training.there r better ways to get ppl to stare at u ok.haha.=p im pissed with myself during training today.why do i hav tis psychological barrier? I find it hard to hit ppl. esp ppl i noe.shit la.fucking pissed with myself.n its not coz im a girl.kas can do it.so y cant i.i dont want to let coach down.hiaz..but i feel im not ready to compete yet...at least not till i get over this.

happpy birthday kapila =)

impromptu celebration of one of my new classmate's bday ytr outside tutorial claz coz we just found out frm the class list frm the clazlist n juz happened to be near four leaves bakery in the campus.oh.and guess wad.i am the class rep.i feel so bad la.i didnt even type the class list can.i hope i can be a good and responsible class rep etc.lol.claz outing nxt mon.hope it will b a success...oh, tun if u r reading: i hav 2 clazzmates who noe u frm SAC pri.=)

Ben n Jerry's free cone day!

1st class outing.=) ben n jerry's free cone day! juz simply love b n j man.no free icecream i will still eat.haha.only 8 of us went since its like such an impromptu thing though mentioned it since the 1st day.yum.OT2 rawks.i love my class.=) really cool ppl to hangout with.plus i hav cindy in my claz! wad a lovely coincidence.i guess we r fated to be in the same claz.too bad my cousin's gf is in OT1.dont worry gal u will make new frens too.haha.so glad tt i got into course.=)

btw,in case anyone is not aware,im studying at nyp sch of healthsciences now.taking occcupational therapy.its not like we waste our jc life n go backwards to poly coz we will get a bachelors degree in the 4th year in australia n besides its a Alevel entry course.=) i think v few ppl noe abt healthsciences can.sian.i feel as though i enter a jc once again.haha.but i dont like the fact of the course being in nyp la.rawrr.1st week still quite slack.but our lecturer ytr said we will be dealing with cadevers during our practicals.(cadevers meaning dead bodies.)cool man.haha.ok.tts sick.i hope i dont puke.brings back memoriees of the horrible dissection of rat in sec 3.i think i like the psychology lecturer best.it seems the most lively.studying dead stuff juz aint my thing man...esp dead ppl.shudders.

anyway,i hope our claz will b a v bonded claz in time to come.but i can foresee that already.lol.my last week to enjoy b4 the honeymoon period is over.our seniors say that there is alot alot to study v soon.muz really work hard liao.cant be like in jc.damn.ALE KOH pls work hard!haha.

rawrrrr!

the 2 crazy ppl doing rubbish stuff.haha.i had training on monday and ting decided to meet me since she wana go eyebrow threading which was near my training grounds anyway.n tt crazy girl bought a huge toblerone.thanks.ppl were staring at us like we were psychos.i did my eyebrows too! whee!!! training was so tiring ytr.=((( Sham still said tt im fitter than some guys.thanks.i tink my stamina's decreasing.haha.i dont really like the fitness part of training.=( now im quite unsure whether to go for competition in june.it seems tt its too fast to prepare.hiaz.i dunno if im ready yet.besides i juz started this sport nt too long ago.i guess ill juz see how la.hope i can become fitter and better up till june.Coach is planning a bbq or fishing trip in indonesia or msia. really looking forward to it.=) someone's gonna teach me how to fish! haha.i bet i wont have the patience though.ill juz be the one waiting for the fish n then eating it.=p lol.

updates

havent been blogging for like zillions of years.haha.anw, ive decided to blog a little since i still dont have any work to do yet.=) class chalet was great.dunno wd happened to the rest of the guys.haha.shall not elaborate on the exotic movies we chose to watch there.haha.

have been attending my maternal grandmother's wake for the past few days.i am so dead tired.come home in the middle of the night everyday.the wake seems likea pretty happy occasion, with everyone sending her off in her last journey.her onset of death was so sudden so she actually kinda passed away rather painlessly and peacefully.felt really sad at 1st but after spending time with all the relatives, everyone became in a jovial mood, sharing all the gd times we had.i will miss grandma's cooking.esp her buttered prawns n sharkfin soup.without her around, there might not b family gatherings anymore since the family is so big.but i felt tt the during the wake period, everyone somehow got closer n any enmities were brushed aside easily.ppl who quarrelled in the past juz started talking to each other like gd frens n i spent more time talking to my cousins n getting to noe wads been gg on in each other's life.i guess tis is the irony of the whole event.

i seem to get along with kids v well.aha.really love them.the little girl above is my cousin's daughter.she's so shy.its so hard to get her to talk.haha.bt she opened up to us when she showed us her drawings.so sweet.i guess she has her dad's genes coz he is a artist for the local newspapers.n the little dude with the sweet dimples is marcus, my fav cousin.=))) but he's a devil in n angels disguise.haha.haitun will noe all about it.lol.i still love him loads la.so tiring to play with him.bouncing ard here n there.his 5 year old brain cant really get the concept of funeral, wake n death.he thinks its so fun.kp laughing n joking.thanks.he flew back frm shanghai so his cheeks r so rosy frm the cold weather there.so cute!=) n he speaks in american accented eng plus shanghainese chinese.super bilingual.love to hear him speak.will miss hm loads tmr.
=( bt he noes hw to use msn to chat rubbish.haha.smart kid.

congratulations cheryl!

omg.i din noe abt this until avril told me.i guess im really very lag..congratulations cheryl on ur 6 distinctions!=) u go girl.i'm sure u will be a great vet since u were alwaz so gd with animals.lol.i remember chewy.haha. im darn tired nw.gonna blog another day.yawns.nites...

laila ali

laila "she bee stingin" ali.tts her nickname. coz her punches stings like a bee.
lol.i am nt an idol worshipper.but i guess i really admire laila ali.for her skills, attitude n character.=) she's the undefeated women's middleweight champ of the world.shes so toned and fit.damn zai. runs her own nail salon business too.if only i can be somewhere close to what she is.tt wld be omg so friggin cool man.aha.but i am not.lol.she will juz be my role model n motivation to put in my best in everythin.n wadeva the outcome,the best is enough for me.=)

luncheon at billy bombers

chocolate eggs from mingy to me! whee.haha.=) thanks alot.i will remember wad u said. century eggs for encouragement n motivation.haha.

had lunch at billy bombers with mingy and bee tan today at TM.they went back mj earlier on in the morning to collect some stuff.i love the grasshopper drink.=) food isnt nice though.minmin came and join us much later.i had to leave earlier...sorry girls.=( enjoyed our bitching session though.haha.man.i sure hope karma isnt true...

ijustwannascreammylungsout...

its been a tough few weeks.but i guess it will be a long road ahead.im on my own now.hiaz.Been feeling kinda down n really lonely n apprehensive whenever im thinking of wad happens next.wanna meet up with my girls soon.miss u all real bad.=( i guess things hasnt been gg good for most of us.welcome to the singles club.we're all single n ready to mingle nw.=)
need to meet up with the mj girls too.we've been all to busy to meet together, always meeting in bits and pieces.hmm.really hope we dont drift apart.=( im so freakin paranoid la.ignore me.
i know God will give me the strength and courage to be the best i can be...

lunch at peach garden restaurant @ thomson plaza

we had lunch at peach garden restaurant with my dad's ex colleagues today. usually, as u all know, Ale hates chinese food, esp dim sum etc.haha.but 2day was an exception,almost everythin tasted wonderful.maybe coz i was like super hungry la.had siewmai,ha gao and the likes, egg tarts,yam pie,n this fried crepe with gorengpisang n prawns 2gether.a winning combination.=p
all those for starters.still had duck meat, duck skin, buttered prawns, centuryegg porridge, chicken and veggies.act, i only like the starters la..i wanna go back again nxt time though.2 eat with friends tt is.=))) who noes where else got peach garden rest? damn.i seem to be blogging abt food all the time.hope im not obsessed..

standingrightontopoftheworld

went for boxing trg instead of gg coaching.yes.haha.=) p.s im not irresponsible.im juz damn pissed.felt so damn paiseh today.coach played a mean joke on me ok.i cant believe i fell for it.Man..am i tt gullible? or its juz plain stupidity.i tend 2 alwaz get "tricked" by ppl.wadeva u say, i will tend to buy ur story.unless i findout its total crap or u r sum loser who like 2 talk rubbish n say stuff tts nt accurate n i happend 2 find out one time too many.-_-

anw, this is how he tricked me.when i went 2 the gym 2day, coach suddenly look at me and say "Who are you ah? are u new here?".then.i felt quite weird.coz i thought he looked like coach.so maybe i recognized the wrong guy.cldnt rly rmb.then he said:"u train under coach bala isit? hes currently in msia.im his brother.i will take over him for 2day." and so.tts when i started believing all his bullcrap.then he asked how i find coach bala.so thank god i didnt say anything bad abt him.n for a whole ten mins, everyone put up a v gd job in fooling me.i totally bought the story.theres this senior who even said to me"coach's brother look alot like him rite? coz they are twins."and he kept his face so straight,i totally din suspect anythin.until when i told Kas who juz came in, she said no la, wad nonsense, he bluff u only.aiyo thanks.then everyone started laughing n laughhing.oh wad the heck.i cant believe im so dumb la.felt so paiseh.really wanted 2 dig a whole to hide.n throughout the whole trg, they kept joking abt it.thanks.i swear never to fall 4 dumb jokes like this again..

on a more serious note, 2day was really a great day for me.becoz of wad coach said 2 me at the end of trg.He asked me to never ever give up halfway because he saw tt i have alot of potential n talent to go competitive.it mite seem like nth much la.bt it really means alot 2 me becoz hes v frank in the sense tt if u're gd,or bad he will juz tell u straight.nt like the previous coach who juz praises.u feel gd when someone believes in u.haha.im feeling on top of the world rite now.=))) gdnite.

aintgonnafeelbadnomore

haha.i guess my posts r always v random.my mood swings like a pendulum most of da time.
felt quite down the past 2 days,but..ive gotten over it.=) i bounce back easily.or so i think.mmm.
i alwaz feel heaps better after talking to u, even if its a short while.ill juz die without u la.haha.u noe me best.anw, we muz really keep to wad we mentioned juz now okay? make it or break it.dang.ive decided what i want.

getting damn pissed with 1 of my swimming students.its nt my fault tt my period comes today.u complain tt the progress is slow.but its nt really my fault becoz ur friends happen to fucking break a finger, catch a cold, work overtime, go overseas the past few lessons, hence causing the postponing.argh. ive decided to juz quit since ill hafta do it sooner or later.will be studying soon anw.felt so great after quitting.n sum poor fella hafta clean up my act.haha.idiots.stupid company.its exploitation.getting paid so little per hour.i give up.i seriously have other better things to do..

happy53rdbirthdaydad

today will mark dad's 53rd birthday.though u cant celebrate with us physically but im sure u are able to join us in spirit.., i know u will always be there for us and guide us when we need u. Just like the lighted candle, u will alwaz be the beacon of light and hope in my heart.thanks for being such a great father, alwaz supporting and believing in me.will never stop loving u till the end of time.

wicked indulgence!

came back frm trg n was welcomed by this! was really touched by mum.she nv fails to make my day.=) sweet sweet strawberries do go with this chocolate dip called "wicked".It is really wicked coz it make u addicted.haha.but fret not, the whole-package is organic.which means its supposed to b healthy! ok.maybe the dip wasnt exactly v healthy,but totally pure indulgence.<3 <3 <3 im kinda in love with any strawberrie-related products now.lol.mum bought all these organic nice stuff at vivocity mart.=))) she can spend hours shopping on such stuff.thanks..but still, bought and made with love.haha.

after nus open hse, we decided to go town.whee.haha.joycey needed to do some stuff. and we were pretty hungry anw. and in the end,we went to take neoprints.yes.it has been such a longggggg time since we laz did that.i wondered what inspired that random thought.

picture on top of ting and ale piggying on breadpapa's creampuffs.(courtesy of joycey). we are like so unglam.to think that we had tacho pachis just before that.i guess we were too hungry.=) gotta stop such cravings in future.argh..

NUS OpEN HOuSE =)

went to the NUS open house today.although its the 2nd day, its still pretty crowded. i was early there so went to take a look at aunty siew ngoh's office at FASS after lunch at tis jap rest there. walked around with mingy first becoz i din noe joycey n ting were cmg so soon.like how most feel, i was overwhelmed by the vibrancy there.its really nice to have spriteful ppl coming to talk to u almost at every turn.the culture there is really great and full of energy.the halls were all very attractive and v full of camaraderie.uni experience is really i whole new idea as compared to jc life.

ming and i were stuck at 1st, kept getting pulled in by the various hall reps.sheares hall seem the coolest though.and we kept writing our names and gg to this booth and that, not knowing how to say "no,im nt really interested."after awhile, i got the hang of it.haha.but i muz say we the souvenirs they give are really not bad.i got frm notepads to planner to sample perfume,shampoo,metal keychain of a boy n gurl..etc.and believe it or not,SPF 50 sunblock! lol. sunblock will come in handy though.=)

met joyce n ting after at the exhibition halls after tt.we kept missing each other down at the 1st level..=( oh.i cant believe its such a small world! Joyce's friend,Elton was my sec sch chi tuition mate.didnt really talk to him last time.he looked exactly the same.haha. bumped into chunshu at the fass booth as well.apparently she bumped into leeting n joyce nt too long ago.so many familiar faces..

euphoric =)

mensa agm nxt sun.have decide to run for committee.of coz juz sum small post.only bigshots get the president,v president etc.so zunzin,u can dream on man.but.we mite not even get the lowest of posts,haha.the comm so small.decided 2 juz try 4 fun.no harm anw.plus thre will b nice free brunch at agm.tts y i will agree to in the 1st place..=p kidding.

went for boxing 2day at fp..the facilitie here is better than at kallang.saw tennis trainings there.how nostalgic.lol.saw sum familiar faces..lol.
coach here was really nice.i feel happy that because theres lesser ppl here,thres more attention paid to everyone.i dont really know if i can make the commitment 2 train 3 times a wk.hafta depend on other factors.=x training was exhausting but enjoyable.only thing tt sucked was shadow boxing in the dark.pitch dark nite outside the gym.this indian guy trg with me kept bumping into me tt i had to dodge repeatedly.bt i dun blame him la.it was so dark i cant really see too.i see no point in trging in this.the coach say its nt enuf juz to see bt feel as well.bt since u cant see,theres nth much to feel.lol.my new trg mates r mark,Raye,Kas n Din.kas the only girl other than me.yes.a girl at last.training is really no nonsense.if u make a mistake,u will get scolded..hiaz.i only like praises.dont like to b scolded.but its part of the process.at least u learn.what i muz rmb, nv forget to protect my face.=(

oh.n i was really glad tt the toilet at farrerpark is no longer unisexual.proxy 2 yrs ago, i went 2 farrerpark 4 tennis, came out of the changing cubicle n sawa guy abt our age shaving infront of the mirror.horrors of horrors..i thought i went into the wrong toilet.but thank heavens no.once in secondary school was enough.damn f**k that was.will nt elaborate further.=( waited for Kas to shower b4 leaving her.it was so quiet so i thught it mite b unsafe if she showers alone.
sorry darling i met u a LIL late.heh.still,supper is supper.=) novena square freaking pathetic.no night life.haha.we tried ichiban to tcc to spinelli and were replied by 'sorry we are closed". -_-"'
in the end,kfc.wadeva la.im freakin hungry anw.nuah-ed around for awhile outside the place b4 heading home.sorry again tt i cant go wif ya to mc cafe for dessert coz i din tell my mum im gonna stay out.plus i stink frm trg la.n i left my shirt behind.damn.im getting kinda blur these days...God knows why.

im getting kinda tired now. i hate to admit it,i miss u. .do u even care.ok.u r nt obligated to.anw..dang.why am i missing u..i shdnt be.

8 march 2007

had lunch wif my mum n aunty 2day.my aunt flew back to spore in the midnite juz to double check tt nth serious is about her pancreas.it turned out to b juz an infection.phew.anw,spore doctors are the best n i guess being a sporean,u only trust ur own healthcare system...

today was supposed to be dinner with the mj girls.but some cant make it.but it wasnt supposed to be cancelled.guess there was sum misunderstandin cum miscommunication which caused val c nt to meet us.dang..=( i wonder when we can meet again.n so its rendezvous with my bee again.how boring.=p she wanted to watch this dumb thriller called primeval or stmg to tt effect.n 4 sum reason,the movie juz totally didnt appeal to me.grrrhh..but i obligated in the end.haha.

dinner regrettably was at long johns since we had like juz half an hr to eat.tun got served raw fish twice.see la, tell u dont eat at disgusting fastfood places like longjohns u nv heed my advice?haha.argh.horrible.we had to go back n complain etc.n their attitude sux.total turn off.this seriously intensifies my dislike for long johns.dang.

Primeval was boring at 1st.but after awhile, the plot thickens n it gets more exciting la.im nt like tun who is so sadistic.haha.the crocs MUNCHING up humans is juz totally gross n gory.bt nt to the extent as apocalypto..*shudders.the very thought still bring chills down my spine..Primeval doesnt hav much of a storyline i guess.the attempt to merge politics 2gether wif the whole monster croc package was a failed one.n several times thru the movie,u keep wondering y the journalist team is so goddamn stupid n yet wonder y they r equally lucky when dodging bullets..n it was kinda predictable right frm the start.i knew who will die n who will live.oh.n the damn creature still didnt die after one entire round of hunting for it.argh.im nv goin ta watch movies abt creatures ever again...>_<

delicious!

the chocolates above r really die die must try! =) abosolutely heavenly n sinful.preserved real strawberries covered with white belgian choc tt melts in ur mouth literally.since when hav i become a sweet tooth.anw,its really cheap too.3.90 for a pack frm marks n spencers.so pls go n try it if u pass by.n buy a pack for me too.=p kiddin...

standinginbetweenthecrossroads

should i accept this opp,or dont.
much as i want to decline,
i do not know if it will b a right decision.
i do not want to depend on ppls help.
it will all but create complications.
i am indeed in a dilemma.
caught btw a hardrock n two places.
y isit so hard to make choices.
its hard to compromise.screw this.
i wonder if i will hav the strength n grit to do this.